I wanted to try and use this thing again, as venting space has become limited. I no longer like the idea of writting on paper, even though through highschool i was never without one.

What is there to know? I love Wisconsin. La Crosse is so beautiful. The job oppourtunities are so much better out here. Klay found a job he loves within a week, and 4 places are interested in hiring me right now. The cosmetology thing is still in process. What a fucking pain in the ass. I just need something to pay the bills while i'm working on the transfer. So, i work at a jewelry counter. Woo-hoo. And OH, if you saw me in the uniforms.

I'm so glad i made the move. I had to. It was surprisingly easy to leave. 90% of the people i was associated with can now all fuck right off. I miss a couple people. Really just Misty, actually. There was so mucy pain in Washington. My brother's death has been a nightmare since day one, and it hasnt even gotten the least bit easier. has it been 6 months already? I feel like it was yesterday. I still have extreme fits of rage, and depression. Some days anything at all makes me cry. I just get so back. GIVE HIM BACK, i silently scream. At night i look up at his picture and say "'Night, Brocker". Nothing ever seems good anymore. There is a huge hole inside of me that can never be filled, or repaired, and i somehow have to learn to live with feeling like less of a person. And really, i am. I lost my own blood.

October 13th marks me and Klay's 1 year anniversary. That doesnt seem like its been that long either. I dont know what he has planned, but im assuming fun will be had.

Anyway, thats all i can squeeze out of my brain right now.

Anyone out there even reading this?

I think i'm going to start using this thing again soon.
Very soon.

Myspace isnt much for long winded heartbreak and such.

Anyone still around?